The Divided Self

“For centuries the society has been using that strategy to destroy the integrity of the individual. It gives you ideals, it tells you how you should be. It never allows you to love yourself as you are. It creates division: you are one thing, the society says you have to be something else; you become two. Your ideal self creates a constant tension in you. Your real self also becomes a burden because you don’t want it; the society says that it is worthless: Drop it. The real is denied and the unreal is imposed. Now this is the whole misery of man: how can one ever be in bliss if the real is denied, rejected, condemned, and the unreal is appreciated, valued? “ ~ OSHO

As Osho points out in his book, “The Sacred Yes”, in living this split life, there is a lack of wholeness. The only difference between people is the degree that they are split, which is a form of schizophrenia.  Society, school, religion and family teaches division, blocking the ability to live and celebrate one’s own uniqueness. We are urged to become something different than what we truly are. This creates what OSHO refers to as “TWO in one body”.  This split is often, the source of misery, depression and unhappiness.

In this place of self-denial hovering above our head and hanging in the background of our mind and thoughts, a split is created inducing a mild form of insanity.

When we accept our totality, embracing all of our moods from sadness to happiness and joy to concern, we are integrated and whole. In this place of total wholeness, Osho states that miracles come into our life. A transcendence takes place that allows relaxation to come into the body, into the mind and ultimately into all of our life activities and relationships.

I appreciate how Osho conveys love to be synonymous with beauty and as a tool towards integration. It is true. In a beautiful environment, our heart is widened and expanded, causing one to feel great joy and peace inside. When we create beauty in our immediate space through tidiness, fresh flowers on our altar and placing beautiful objects around us, burn natural incense, we feel more love, more sacredness and more divine energy in our existence as greater self-confidence and contentment with life comes. They do go hand in hand. This is the start of bridging the division in our being and expanding our potential to experience greater love.

The formula that H. H. Paramahamsa Nithyananda uses in his retreats for transformation is magnificently powerful in bridging the disconnected parts of our being. Following the traditional teachings of the Bhagavad Gita, Vedas and Agamas, we find a split, a division in mind, thoughts and actions. It is this division that fosters all of our hardships and difficulties in life combined with blocked emotions. Do our thoughts match our words and do our words and thoughts match our actions? He conveys a method for bridging this division over a twenty-one day period, ultimately bringing cohesion into one’s system therefore, changing one’s reality, radically. As he points out, this is an essential on-going process that never ceases, to continuously clear blocked emotions through the practice of completion to bridge and integrate all parts of our being.

Sri Aurobindo further points out that there are three stages for cultivating integration: (1) the ego coming into contact with the Divine, (2) the laborious preparation of the lower nature while the Divine works to be received and the (3) eventual transformation that comes through this relationship perpetuated by one’s own will to change and evolve. This is the true workings of Yoga.

Sri Aurobindo points out that there is “ ….sort of free, scattered and yet gradually intensive and purposeful working determined by the temperament of the individual in whom it operates, the helpful materials which his nature offers and the obstacles which it presents to purification and perfection.”

There are many ways to connect with the Divine. Utilizing the methods of the Yoga science that best suits one’s own nature is the best way to achieve this union within and without, from below and with above.

As Sri Aurobindo poignantly points out, “All of life is Yoga of Nature seeking to manifest God within itself. Yoga marks the stage at which this effort becomes capable of self-awareness and therefore, right completion in the individual.”

from Perspectives for a New Millennium,
the Synthesis of Yoga by Sri Aurobindo

Truly, I appreciate this paragraph from the same book: “….what nature aims at for the masses in a slow evolution, Yoga effects for the individual by a rapid evolution. It works by a quickening of all her energies, a sublimation of all her faculties. While she develops the spiritual life with difficulty…..the concentrated method of Yoga can attain directly and carry with it the perception of mind and even, if she will, the perfection of body……Yoga goes beyond Nature to the Lord of Nature, beyond universe to the Transcendent…..”

Yoga is more than bending and stretching the body in specific ways, it is an entire body of work broken down into eight categories, practiced simultaneously yet, starting with purification of body and the reprogramming of mind through spiritual teachings.

As J. Krishnamurti points out in his talk given in August of 1979,  the original, ancient Yoga is Raja Yoga, to lead a highly moral life, through ethical activity. Yoga translates as “to join” meaning lower with higher.  Only when the self has surrendered completely, a different kind of energy takes place. The lower mind is in constant conflict and opposition and struggle with life. As long as the struggle is happening, there is a waste of energy. When the struggle leaves and is gone, a totally different energy takes place. Surrendering to the Divine is a highly individual, personal experience that happens in a multi-fold way and is unique to each person and happens upon the initiation of an enlightened master – in ways unimaginable and often, outside of the physical plane.


Spending great amounts of time figuring out the mind through intellectual sciences is such a waste of energy. The mind is full of delusion and trickery, false assumptions. It’s an endless chase to grasp its wild nature, intellectually. If one is integrated, whole and undivided as the true teaching of Yoga provides, then life leads one out of the shackles of Maya and into the flow of heaven.

May your chosen path lead you into a blissful, healthy state of integration.