On Being SHIVA

शुद्धतत्त्व-सन्धानाद् वा अपशुशिक्तः ॥ १- १६ ॥
śuddhatattva-sandhānād vā apaśuśaktiḥ ॥ 1- 16 ॥


Through fixing one’s attention and aiming at the pure essence, while cognizing from the depth of one’s being – that all that exists is Sadashiva, and through uniting with that pure essence and existential reality understood as Sadashiva, one experiences being Sadashiva and manifests Sadashiva’s infinite power.

  Shaastra Pramana: Shiva Sutra, verse 1.16


Having been raised in an orthodox Christian home, attending a Christian grade school and having attended a Christian seminary to acquire professional license to counsel, I have been deeply immersed in the western religion and can surf my way around the Bible fluently to find passages and scriptures to reinforce my debates or satisfy my curiosity. I am deeply familiar with the Christian culture and religion, as well, given the Hebrew name at birth, “Rachel”, meaning ‘mother of the sheep’, which further planted me deeply in the bedrock of this religious pathway.

Growing up in the 60’s, memories flood into my being recalling preachers standing in their pulpit shouting the curses of damnation and insisting we are all going to hell unless we repent, ask for forgiveness and be baptized in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Ghost while accepting the Lord Jesus Christ as our Savior. 

It was commanded that we embrace this trinity: Father, Son and Holy Ghost and the necessity to accept the son as our savior, while appreciating the Father’s role and someday, we may figure out what ‘Holy Ghost’ means. There are not many clear interpretations of this elusive entity that is floating around in the atmosphere that may light upon us if we are virtuous enough like Christ, the Son and Savior.

We do read in the New Testament that when Christ Jesus was baptized by John the Baptist in the Jordan River, the Holy Ghost ascended upon him like a dove from heaven. Different translations of the Bible interpret this incident in different ways such as the “Spirit of God” and so on. The King James Version states the event: “And lo a voice from heaven spoke and said, “This is my beloved Son with whom I am well pleased”. 




Matthew 3:16 and in Luke 3:22, both times, the dove is referred to as the Holy Spirit.


One Christian website references the Holy Spirit as the principle agent of the church and its mission, overflowing with love, embracing the triune of God, his mission of creation, protection and redemption of all of creation.  ~ Redemption is the act of saving one from sin, evil or error. 

The wikipedia describes the “Holy Ghost” as the creator Spirit, present before the creation of the universe and through his power everything was made in Jesus Christ, by God the Father. …….Not sure what that means.

The purpose of the baptism ceremony, a tradition of the Christian Catholic Church, is to wash away sins so that one can start a new life with the invocation of the Father, Son and the Holy Spirit. Through this religious ceremony, one is empowered to experience and become equipped with a spirit-filled body to share the Christian teachings with others. One also receives all the spiritual gifts that are mentioned in the New Testament used for building up and developing a church. Some translations interpret those gifts to be: Wisdom, understanding, counsel, courage, knowledge, reverence and fear of the Lord……. Unsure why fear of the Lord is necessary for starting a church.

Inherent Spiritual Powers

Then, there are the fruits of the Holy Spirit which are twelve in number and regarded in the Catholic belief doctrine as: Charity, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, forbearance, mildness, faith, modesty, self-control, and chastity.  For the more contemporary Christian religions, the charismatic spiritual gifts are outlined as: words of wisdom, words of knowledge, increased faith, gift of healing, gift of miracles, gift of prophecy, discernment of spirits, speaking in different languages naturally through prayer, interpretation of those languages, the gift of being a prophet or teacher or position of leadership in a church. (1 Corinthians 12)

Must admit here, for a ten year old, the first time I was baptized (three times while growing up for the need to be cleansed and forgiven), I had no idea what was really happening and what would happen next. I can say that a dove never landed on my head and God, the Father, never spoke out loud from heaven. Only the sense of accomplishment to save myself from eternal damnation was executed, whatever that meant. I had no idea, really. 

Including, after each baptism, there never was a changing of my inner nature nor a role model to follow exemplifying these qualities outlined above, animating and expressing a virtuous life. There always seemed to be some kind of a “let down” a day or two later when the reality set in that nothing significant had changed in my being. And even tho I had accepted Christ as my personal savior, I still did not know what to do with that information. The commandment just sat in my mind spinning in circles and leaving me more deluded, confused and unaware. 

Yet, somehow, if I kept praying to Jesus to save me, eventually, I would be saved from going to hell and maybe, just maybe, I might express some of these gifts that come with the Holy Ghost. Truly, I was hopeful and had love and respect for the Lord Jesus, Christ my Savior. 

Many years later, when I began demonstrating healing abilities, physic sight, discernment of spirits and perform miracles with the ability to communicate prophesies as my kundalini became activated through yoga practice and fervent meditation, I was accused of being a “witch’ by my family and the Christian community surrounding me. Nearby neighbors had even called the police twice with complaints about me, mostly because my plants were green and thriving – during winter months with heavy snow. This caused great fear in most and delight for a few passing by.

Even though I had been baptized more than once, it was not an accepted form of spiritual expression or behavior. I had become the heretic. Fortunately, one Christian did say to me during that period of my life that I expressed the true nature of Jesus, as taught in the Bible, more than anyone else he knew. He was an ordained minister with a Phd in Theology and a Christian High School teacher. I was flattered and relieved, to say the least. Those words gave me inspiration and courage. 

This experience of the years growing up in a Christian environment are a perfect example of how twisted our understanding of spiritual principles become when there is no enlightened being holding the space as an example for cultivating our spiritual maturation process to its highest potential. After all, if we are truly “sons of God” then we should be able to express the powers that Christ demonstrated.

“I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father.” ~ John 14:12

Never once, in all my years saturated in the Christian lifestyle did I encounter an enlightened being. Nay, I watched men in the pulpit hoard lots of money and drive expensive cars while they lived in fancy homes, some of them were sexual predators and many, many of the teachers in school demonstrated terrible prejudices if a child was not aligned with their idea of “Christian”. Never did I experience the true essence of compassion from anyone representing the religion. There were some nice people, please understand, however, many of those in positions of leadership were operating in ways that directly expressed the nature of the program: greed, lust, fear, worry and a terrible lack of integrity.

Granted, this can happen anywhere wherever there are humans. It is not isolated to the Christian community, and certainly, I mean no insult to those who are living a devout Christian path while I honestly share my experiences. Please remain open-minded as you read and refrain from taking this sharing as a personal assault.


The intention here is to make a point leading up to what qualifies as an authentic spiritual truth and proof for that which chronicles the production of enlightened beings for thousands of years.

History of Religion

Maurice Cotterel, author of The SUPERGODS, fantastically portrays the history of religion in accordance to races based on anthropological and archaeological records and findings. One of the relegations that he presents in his book is the origins of religion in connection to ancient cultures. Scientific studies prove that Hindus are the original race stemming out of the last major earth change when humanity had been devastated and wiped off the face of the earth in a catastrophic way. Six times, life has been destroyed on this planet for various reasons yet, somehow, the Hindu race has been able to survive and continue perpetuating the life of humans on this planet for thousands upon thousands of years.

The focus of his book highlights a comparison between all major worldly religions. In his research and sharing we find that there is a major thread of similarity that ties the foundation of all these religious teachings into one type of holy trinity: there are three major god-heads that are considered to be the creator of life in the cosmos, orchestrating existence while maintaining and occasionally destroying so that life can be transformed and renewed.

Some of the more ancient religions hold a closer, similar interpretation in contrast to the modern religions such as Christianity and the various branches that stem off of it, which are obviously designed to control the masses, in some way, and usually not with good intentions. After all, the King James Version of the Bible, the original version of scriptures behind the Christian belief system was published in 1611 under the command of King James I and IV and organized by the Vatican.

Around the same time-period, the Roman Empire designed the tropical astrological system for organizing commerce, a penchant for earning and building wealth. Established in the 1500’s by Pope Gregory XIII, tropical astrology was invented as a tool for the European Catholic Church to manage the movement of the earths revolution around the Sun and changes in equinoxes. This new kind of calendar is used for civil purposes to manage finances and is often referred to as “Common Era” calendar.

In the ancient Hindu method of astrology called, Jyotisha, time-keeping, tracking and predicting of celestial bodies is the main governing principle used to understand the nature of a human and how they can best evolve and express as well as for ensuring a bountiful crop working with heavenly forces. The new year for this time-keeping method begins in April – not on January first.

The Gregorian, European calendar is based on the movement of the Sun, notice when the “shortest” day of the year occurs, which has tremendous impact on commerce. Surely, it is no accident that we have what is called “Black Friday”, which begins the shopping frenzy for the next two months, during the darkest time of the year with the celebration of the western holiday: Christmas, which guarantees a profitable fiscal year right before the next fiscal year begins. It helps to have a shopping frenzy during the darkest, shortest days of the year. Perhaps, it is no accident that this is also portrayed as the time when Jesus was born. This holiday story is so sadly twisting on humanity.


The ancient, eastern calendar is based on the movement of the Moon, which has a tremendous impact on farming. This ancient Lunar system is also used as a method for the right time to conceive a divine child with the possibility of possessing a fantastic mind with formidable attributes.

At the same time, this calendar outlines and organizes celebrations that are held to ensure a strong, bountiful harvest while conducting proper devotion to certain gods at certain times, appealing for their blessings and care.

The ancient Hindu culture was well aware of, and still today, of the subtle cosmic forces that foster life and all its expressions for living an abundant life as a powerful human.



The result of a fully realized, empowered being can have devastating effects on a kingdom reliant on paupers, “worker-bees” and business men to supply the bounty required for their luxuries and noble comforts. 

A fully self-realized being has the capability to rely completely on the multi-dimensional, subtle reality for managing their existence in a profound way, joyfully. This space of enlightenment is a radically different style of existence than what has been created by European empires, the modern man-made religions and the more contemporary American society built on the greed of commerce and the fear of survival. 

Another huge contrast in these two religious models is the concept of one god versus many gods. The ability to choose your god has a profound liberating effect as fear is removed and cannot be used as the catalyst for controlling.

With the choice of many gods to attune in accordance to one’s own inner propensity, one can relax into devotion and contentment, allowing the “god within” to grow and evolve inside of one’s being, to take care, protect and provide.

Although there are many sects of the Hindu religion such as: Shaktism, Vaishnavism, Shaivism, Smartism, Jainism and so on, they each embrace the same ancient scriptures in their own unique way, while maintaining the integrity of the fundamental message being imparted by these divine dispensations created thousands of years ago by enlightened beings. For instance, Shaktism focuses on Divine Mother worship and is the most feminine of all other types of Hindu religious systems. Earliest evidence of its teachings and religious appeals are indicated in archaeological evidence dated between 9000 B.C. and 8000 B.C.. Shiaivism originates during the 1st millennium while Jainism is regarded to be over a million years old and ancient texts date as early as 500 BCE and 900 BCE. Vaishnavism has roots extending back to 1st millennium BCE and is considered to be the key inspiration for the Bhakti movement occurring during the 2nd millennium CE.

You can see that there is a vast difference in the longevity in comparison with the early European designs on religion as it is also highlighted in Maruice Cottrell’s book SUPERGODS. This ultimately provides the evidence that the original, spiritual trilogy stems from these ancient, ancient teachings.

TRILOGY or also known as Trimurti

In Sanskrit, the term is ‘Trimurti’ to represent the male, triple deity with the cosmic functions for creation, maintenance and destruction for transformation and with each deity or god representing these qualities. On occasion, there does occur an incarnation possessing all three gods in one avatar form called, Dattatreya. 

Each of these gods have their own abodes or place of heaven for their followers and they each carry a personal weapon; they each have their own personal creature that they mount, when necessary and their own female consort, which compliments their design and function in a beautiful way. All these components of each god represent a significant aspect of their power and blessings for the follower worshipping their image and what it represents.

There is even a “Tridevi” composed of three goddess for those who prefer to worship the female energy: Lakshmi, Saraswati and Parvati. These three combined into one goddess is known as Adi Parashakti Devi. They are prominently worshipped in the Shaktidharma sect of Hinduism and represent the same as the masculine Trimurti with Saraswati representing the creator force, Lakshmi the preserver and Kali the destructive force for transformation. These three also represent finer details as consorts of the masculine Trimurti representing the arts, culture, intelligence, knowledge, joy, beauty, love and so on.



Hinduism recognizes that God or the Cosmos creator is both female and male yet, takes all forms of energy or incarnations to change from one form to the other in order to orchestrate existence and all its activity. Hence, the iconic image of SHIVA as a combination of male and female forms.



In my own spiritual journey, the introduction to Hindu gods came through my relationship with a manifestation of Shakti energy expressed through The Mother, the female consort in the Sri Aurobindo movement. Around the same time I was introduced to Swami Rama, came The Mothers force into my life, yet, she was not alive, only her books in my possession were the tools to begin working with me on a deep, cosmic level, or rather, the force of consciousness through her. 

Little did I know until recently, how significant Shiva has been in my life and with the process of my spiritual transformation.

Perhaps what is the most profound is the history of Hindu goddesses that have weaved through my life and transformational process over the years, starting in 1995. During that year, I acquired a beautiful Australian shepherd dog who I named SHIVA because she was so fierce and seemingly destructive of anything that was in her way and desperately required a transformation into gentleness. Somehow, I knew that the force of SHIVA was the only hope for her. From that point forward, on the prompting of shouting out SHIVA throughout the day, over a period of years, the force of SHIVA became the catalyst for the transformation in my being, and hers. 

Soon after acquiring the dog SHIVA, I happened upon a woman in the forest who told me it was time to change my name. She quickly glanced over my presence, assessed who I was and promptly gave me the name “Kashi”, which happened to be the name of her white wolf. Perhaps it is not an accident given the nature of SHIVA’s relationships with the canine species.

Soon, thereafter, Shiva and I acquired another dog, a black lab. The moment she leapt into my arms and the first time I laid eyes on her, I was prompted to name her ‘Kali’. Upon receiving a new name for me and a new puppy deity, my ferocious dog, SHIVA, who was suddenly becoming more calm and patient, gained a new name: SHAKTI. Now, we had Shakti, Kali and Kashi. Truly, I had no idea what I had just created. I was only playing and enjoying, spontaneously and auspiciously.

Certainly, it is no coincidence that the Hindu religion practices giving a new name to the disciple, radically changing their direction and purpose in life from the mundane to the spiritual path of enlightenment. Naturally, the two dogs and me became fully committed seekers on the path of spiritual transformation. 




It wasn’t until years later that I would discover that each of these names of Hindu gods were intimately connected. Without conscious intention, somehow, these powerful names and the forces they represent became my calling card, with my dogs, as they radically transformed our reality. 

When Sri Nithyananda Paramashivam came into my life a few years ago, I was ready to align myself with the initiator of my potential as an evolving human.  Certainly, I have known this force of SHIVA before, this Avatar and incarnation, because of the degree of devotion and surrender that I hold inside my being for His presence in my life. 

One of His most profound teachings is the understanding that one is SHIVA, a manifestation of god in human form with all the capabilities to express power and live a blissful life while fully enjoying what it has to offer in a calm and peaceful inner space. This is the essence of the Hindu religion and its teaching, realizing our full potential through the activation of higher chakras in our form in direct alignment with higher, spiritual principles for achieving enlightenment.

This is a huge contrast from the way I was raised and conditioned. Suddenly, I’m no longer a “sinner” that is expected to repent, filled with tremendous guilt and confusion about who is god, why do we worship his son and wondering, where the hell is mother? And most of all, terribly disconnected from any type of “Holy Ghost”.

Consciousness is not a ghost, this I can say for certain. 


Perhaps the most significant component for me in embracing the Hindu religion is grasping the understanding of expansion. 

Throughout existence, a powerful, creative force remains expressing all forms and styles, all shades colors, hues, and tones, all shapes and sizes, even the good and bad of human experience. That is a huge state of expansion.

Perhaps that is why I was given the name “Kashi” in 1996, so that I could taste the essence of what it is like to hold all of existence inside of my being with grace, bliss and devotion to SHIVA and with the realization that I am never forsaken, I am only a manifestation of god, experiencing my own creation as an aspect of god.

After all, the ancient City of Varanasi, also known as “Kashi” is an important space for SHIVA to reside while she expresses as an independent intelligence giving her the full name: Kashi Devi.

Months ago, little did I know that when I wrote my Guru and told
him that since I was SHIVA, I had decided to give myself the name: KaShiva Devi UmAnanda.

I did not know this important fact concerning the full name Kashi Devi when I wrote him about this declaration. This is how the multi-dimensional reality operates – it is completely, entirely auspicious in nature.

Kashi Devi is the oldest city known to man where the worship of Shiva is conducted every day with large amounts of ghee – a powerful conduit for bliss.

The city of Kashi holds all walks of life, every kind of human and all the good and bad that goes with it; a diversity of knowledge and creative expressions; she holds some of the most powerful, spiritual power spots and temples in the world and is considered one of the seven sacred cities of Hinduism.

Yet, how she has suffered at the hands of the various representations of other religions and greedy parliaments. Even the most sacred temple, Kashi Vishwanath Temple, had been destroyed by the Muslims with a mosque built upon its site and a rebuild of the temple, many years later, to the west of the mosque covering the original site of the ancient temple. She has endured the most difficult and the most tragic, yet how powerful and majestic she remains.

In all her glory, Kashi Devi expresses a full spectrum of manifestations for life and death with the River Ganges of divine powers flowing through her. 

As my Guru says, in expansion there is only love. 

So be it. 



“Whether we believe it or not, accept it or not, want it or not, we are God.

We are divine.

All we can do is accept it, experience it, live and powerfully express it or we can just continue to struggle and fight with it.

This is the truth.” ~ Swamiji